Another visit has come and gone ... always too quickly. As much as I hate that our time together it doled out in six-day chunks, I absolutely love the time that we do get to spend together. As much as I wish that I could live closer and just stop by your house when the feeling strikes ... or have you over for dinner ... or drop the girls off to spend the day with their Grammy, I also know how easy it is to take that kind of relationship for granted. And I don't ever want to take you for granted.
I am not exactly sure when it happened. We've always been close - despite the distance (in actual miles) that separates us. Without me even realizing it. Without me ever saying it aloud. You became my best friend. More often than not, you are the first person I call whether I am having a great day or at the end of my rope. Just hearing your voice makes me feel like I am home.
I never feel more like myself than when I am with you. You never judge or criticize. You know my faults and forgive them. I can be goofy, stressed, sad, excited, ... no matter what I'm feeling, you are right there to laugh
at with me ... or bring me a sense of calm ... or lift me up and help me see the bright side ... or celebrate along with me. And you have this subtle way of letting me know that you're proud of me. You don't have to say it in words or make some grand gesture. I can see it in the way that you look at me ... and the things you tell other people.
After I became a mom, I saw you in a whole new light. I saw you as the woman who held me as a newborn and sang to me and soaked me in and worried over my every breath. It was really humbling to experience the kind of love that you have for me. There is no love like a mother's love. But I also realized that my love for you is even deeper than I imagined.
Seeing you with your granddaughters. Seeing how much you love them. There aren't words for that kind of love. It's beautiful, and it does my spirit good to bear witness to it.
Thank you for making the trip all the way out here - again. Thank you for playing with Natalie and cuddling Charlotte. Thank you for telling me that I am doing a good job as a mom. Thank you for cooking yummy dinners (especially chicken strips) and buying our lunches out. Thank you for Natalie's new wardrobe and Charlotte's new swing. And for giving me some precious "me" time. You spoil us and we like it.
I love you. I appreciate you. I can't wait until our next visit.