I am contracting again today. My emotions and tears are all over the place.
(If the again part is throwing you off, you missed my post about a trip to the hospital last night.)
I spent my morning eating a yummy breakfast of crepes - thanks to my sweet husband, and then going back to bed until 11:00. I took a shower and picked up the bedroom and bathroom. CPV and his mom took Natalie out for a couple of hours and brought back Jimmy John's for lunch - yummy!
And then the contractions started about 1:00 and have continued every 6 - 8 minutes for two hours now. I took a dose of terbutaline about 30 minutes ago.
I've been on the couch watching a truly sappy and not-so-great movie starring Renee Zellweger. I did get to talk to my mom and let her know what's going on. I know she's worried, which I hate, but it was so good to hear her voice - I just couldn't help myself.
I guess I am feeling a little sorry for myself and worried about Baby Girl V 2.0 and wondering how the rest of my pregnancy will go ... is this just a little bump in the road or a big sign foretelling of the challenges (beyond normal pregnancy challenges) that lay ahead?
I keep thinking that a bladder infection is the best case scenario ... because it's treatable with antibiotics and hopefully once the infection is under control, the contractions will stop. But what if the contractions don't stop? What if I have to be on bedrest and terb for the next 18 weeks? I've been on bedrest. I've been on terb. Neither is fun. Without question, I want what is best for the baby growing inside me, but ... what kind of life is that for me and CPV and my energetic two year old? We don't have family here in the NW to depend on, and that scares me - a lot. I also hate to be out-of-commission. I hate relying on other to take care of me. It's so frustrating.
I should be forcing myself to forget about the What Ifs. I'll see my OB tomorrow, and we'll know more. But as I sit here - still contracting - I am just feeling all kinds of anxious.
16 comments:
im prayin for you mama.. it will all be ok...
Oh sweetie, hang in there! Thinking about you!
keeping you in my thoughts. hope all will go well for you. keep us posted!
I hate that you're going through this...we're praying for you. I have a good feeling though. Emmett and I will be there in one week to take care of you and keep you off those pregnant piggies of yours! We love you!
I am sending you big kisses and hugs from the east coast..I hate that you are going through this and I can't be there for you. :( Stay strong. Love you.o
This stinks. I know it's not the same as family, but we're right here, and our energetic 1-year-old will happily run around with your energetic 2-year-old. We will do anything possible to help. Please call if you need us at *any* time of day or night (and I'll call you tomorrow to check in). Hang in there.
I'm so sorry to hear this. We will keep you in our prayers and thank you for the updates. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help....if I can't help I will find a way for someone to come help you.
omg, I cant wait to hear what the dr says! keep us posted!!
Okay Lady, you need to make sure to let me know if you need anything. We're low key tomorrow, excluding a probable visit to the dr for little Miss S to check out her cold etc.
I can cook or take Natalie for a while or whatever, you just say the word.
In the meantime, I'm praying for contractions to stop and Little Miss 2.0 to stay put and keep on baking till Dec!
Hugs, Prays & Even more Hugs!!! xx
Sending my blog-love and lots of positive vibes your way :) Hoping everything is OK.
Try to keep your spirits up and your focus on Baby V2.0. We have faith in you and are only a phone call away.
Wow. Lots of luck to you. I'm sure you're totally fine.
So sorry to hear about this! I hope everything works out well for you and Baby 2.0.
You can and will do whatever you need to for baby BGV. :) NOthing is impossible with a little organization.. and think through.. you are DV remember??!!! THis is what you do best.. HANDLE STUFF. :)
hugs.. thinking of you
I so understand your anxiety about not having family near by. I hope you hear good news soon. Hang in there and we'll keep sending happy vibes to you.
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