Anticipation

Signs of growth 

Sighs of relief

Deep breaths

Tingle of anticipation

We found out at today's ultrasound appointment that BGV did make a marginal gain in her abdominal circumference.  I was not impressed by the very small number (she falls in the second percentile), but my specialist was ... to the point that she is now recommending an induction later this week, Monday at the latest ... rather than tomorrow.  Which means BGV gets a few extra days to grow and allow her lungs to mature a bit more!  Of course, that also means continued monitoring and more doctor's appointments, but ... whatever ;)  I should know the official "plan" tomorrow after seeing my OB for another non-stress test and cervix check ... woo hoo!

At this point, I have completely embraced the idea of an induction.  So many of you shared stories and insights to help me to get to this better place!  I know that drugs will initiate what my body already knows how to do I will trust my body as well as very close monitoring of the baby to see us both through to the very best possible outcome.

Ah, the anticipation of meeting her ... and sharing her with all of you ... is really starting to make me crazy ... in the best way!

BGV 2.0 - An Update

The twice weekly doctor appointment extravaganza continues.  And I must admit that I am growing very weary of it all.  Last week's appointment was a disaster - not from the standpoint of the baby's health but from my own physical and emotional well-being.  I hit a low last week ... feeling like I just don't want to be poked and prodded and monitored anymore.  But I stayed the course and kept my appointment for today... the experience was much better, and I wish I could say the same about the BGV news.

It's not terrible, awful, alarming news.  Actually, it's more of the same.  Today's measurements showed that BGV has slipped below the 10th percentile again.  (Sad face.  Bottom lip sticking out.)  She's making progress, but it's very slow progress.  I really wanted to hear that she's just my late bloomer - that she had this amazing growth spurt and shot up into the 20th percentile.  I set my expectations too high and set myself up for some disappointment.

But I am doing my best to focus on these facts

• that she IS still growing ... 
• and her heart looks fantastic ... 
• and the measurements (head, belly, leg) are showing consistencies ... 
• and she's a true wiggle worm ... 
• and she weighs about 3 pounds 12 ounces!

Because of the "lack of adequate progress,"  I win the grand prize of continued twice weekly doctor's appointments.  Oh, the joy!  At least I am getting to know my baby girl before I actually have her in my arms :)  And I am trying to think of those ultrasounds - with the soft lighting and warm belly jelly - as a weekly prenatal massage.  (How's that for a euphemism?)  Since Chad is able to keep NHV for me on Mondays, I do enjoy a few hours to myself ... driving in the car and listening to a radio station, reading a book or magazine while I wait, ... small pleasures :)

I did remember to take a few belly shots last week ... 

 

My friend and talented photographer has offered to take some actual maternity photos of me ... I think I should definitely take her up on that offer ... otherwise I will be forever known as the faceless mommy-to-be!